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June 9th, 2004
![[info]](http://piktures.deadjournal.com/userinfo.gif) opalsky | 12:28 am
havent written here for a long time. I got a livejournal and its been there that I have written all my creepy little thoughts. but somehow this always feels better to write in. maybe Im just in a dark mood tonight, maybe its because I have officially become the disgrace to my family. for some reason I always thought it would be my younger brother. Ive always done whatever my mother wanted me to do, always followed all her instructions. I didnt even date in highschool because it wouldnt have made my family happy. so Im finally trying to figure out what makes me happy, and she tells me I am a disgrace to my family, Im embarassing them and that I have pushed my brothers into a depression and have caused them to not want to attend school or college. I dont understand how Ive done all that. just because college isnt for me, it doesnt mean that everyone else is going to follow suit. my brothers are not lemmings, they will do what they feel is best for them. at the moment what I feel is best for me is full time work and a place of my own to live. I need to get out and figure out what I want to do. I have been in a major I hate for almost 2 years, and I really know nothing about myself. so the time for self exploration is now, in my opinion. I havent found me at college, so maybe Ill find myself somewhere else.
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